The Pain Of Spiritual Attack In The Realm Of Dreams
I decided to write on the topic of spiritual attack, because of a recent conversation with my 81-year-old mother.
Lately, when I mention certain things that have happened to me as part of my familial experience; my baffled mom asks, “How come I was never told anything like this?” She even asked if my father was aware or knew about whatever it is I’m talking about.
I have to tell you that several years ago, on previous blogs, I did broach the subject of spiritual attack. However, I was still subconscious about the situation and issues of acceptance.
Issues Of Insecurity
I worried that people would think I was weird, or view me differently; maybe with disdain because they could not comprehend what I was talking about.
There was also another issue. I thought people wouldn’t believe me, or even worse – would condemn me. Something like this did happen once when I was in a church group.
I honestly can’t tell you that I recall the topic of the conversation; nor do I recall what specifically prompted me to get past my own neurosis about this topic at that moment, and blurt out specifics about a spiritual attack and an out-of-body experience I had had; but for some reason, I did.
At that moment, I mentioned being in a trance, and immediately upon mentioning that; a (less mature) fellow Christian with an attitude, attacked me. She sanctimoniously told me that such things were “of the devil, and unscriptural.”
Fortunately, I had already searched the scriptures and had indeed found references to trances as well as out of body experiences, and I immediately pulled up the scripture on trances and showed it to her, putting her attitudinal, sanctimonious butt back in her place.
However, that is not what I want to focus on for this post. My focus is what I told my mother. I was under spiritual attack in the dream realm since the age of 5, and these attacks had occurred for 20 years.
Now, I don’t know about anyone else, but in my mind, having something like this happening to you, and not understanding what is going on, can be a great source of pain, if not mental torture.
I mean think about this. If you have a bad, frightening dream, that’s one thing. But for the same dream to keep repeating multiple times for 20 years?
This dream was the completed version in the beginning. As I aged, the scary monster part faded away. Only the last part where the real battle was happening remained. As I explained the dream to my mother, I could see that she was visibly shocked.
“Why didn’t you tell us any of this?” she asked.
How do you broach a subject like this? You will face judgment.
In the church, you will face accusations. They will say you have a demonic, or evil spirit, or a “familiar” spirit. I would hear things like that just because I brought up my dream gift.
The realm of dreams
“How do you know you have a dream gift?” I was sarcastically asked. “How do you know you can interpret dreams?”
Well, I never said that I could interpret everyone’s dreams; only whatever God chose to show me. In the case of my own horror nightmare of 20 years; I never understood what was happening or why, until it had stopped.
Imagine that you are seeing a frightening scenario. Your life is threatened continuously by people who are supposed to care for you the most.
Who Can You Trust?
Not only that but the enemy of mankind, is himself, threatening your life; and you are a little kid. You don’t know who he is, or why he wants to kill you; nor even how he knows who you are. How are you supposed to process that?
So when mom asked me why she never knew about this, I said, “How could I possibly tell you something like this at that age? I didn’t understand it myself.”
Looking For A Savior
Then I reminded her of all the times as a child, that I ran up to the front of the church whenever they did an altar call for salvation. “Mom, I think I went up every time they gave an altar call.”
Naturally, she doesn’t remember this, but I remember it. “I ran up for virtually every altar call, because I didn’t feel safe as a kid.” My life had been threatened.
Then I reminded her of the time my throat started closing up. This only occurred after these dreams started. We were stationed (I’m an AF brat) in Topeka Kansas at the time. That was the hot den of potential iniquity where these dreams began.
Spiritual Attack Ground?
I don’t know what kind of principality governs that sector, but my dream battles began in Topeka. Out of curiosity, I googled Topeka to see what it means. I thought it represented a spiritual requiem or was a sacred burial ground. This is what it means.
The name Topeka is made up of three words from the Kaw, Omaha, and Iowa Native American tribes. The first, to, means “potato”. The second, pe (short for pekae) is an adjective meaning “good”. The third, okae, means “to dig”. Thus, the name Topeka means “a good place to dig potatoes”.
Topeka means “a good place to dig potatoes”.
Ok. Sorry, but I found it funny. Here I was thinking that there was something particularly weird, ghostly or eerie in the name or the physical site. But regardless, the potato dig was the site of my initiation into 20 years of hellish nightmares. Can you relate?
Can Spiritual Attack Be Explained?
There are, I’m sure, many people out there that can’t relate. But, there may be a few who can. The takeaway here is for parents. As I explained to my mother, “Mom, you weren’t in a place spiritually that you could have even understood this. So even if I had been able to explain it to you; it would have been pointless.”
Honestly, how could a five-year-old explain this? Even as I matured, I could never figure out how to explain what was happening to me. The first time I ever mentioned it, was in my late 20’s to the mother of a former boyfriend.
I don’t know what made me feel like I could tell her about it. I didn’t tell her about the dream itself, but she is the one who told me that I had been under spiritual attack.
You see, I was fortunate in that she was a spirit-filled woman. She was able to recognize what had been happening to me. Other people; who are not spiritually activated; would only think I was crazy.
What I never got to tell my mother in that moment of personal confession, is that this was the first, but not the last of my spiritual dreams. I explained to her; because I had gone through this as a child, I recognized the same thing occurring in my son at the exact same age.
Yes, parents. Pay attention. If you are not the spiritual guardian of your household; and if you have not secured your children from spiritual attack, this can happen to them. You will never know or understand that they are under attack.
After all, don’t pastors constantly say that the enemy is after our children, to capture their minds during that crucial time of development? What is the median developmental age that the experts say is the time of imprinting on a child?
It is from birth up to 5 years of age. It is a crucial time period, and if your kids don’t feel safe, that is an imprint that will haunt them throughout their lives, causing a lot of pain. Think about this.
If your child is being attacked in the spiritual realm, how would you know? Have you ever even considered this as a possibility? And how could a child that young possibly communicate what they are seeing or experiencing to you?
I’m telling you this, because it also happened to my son. I know that some of you may find this hard to believe, but I’m telling you that my son has inherited my dream gift. The difference is that he cannot, or has not, up to this point, been able to interpret them.
Use Your Intuition & Pay Attention
So every time throughout his childhood, that he had an unusual or frightening dream, something that disturbed him; he would come to me and tell me about it, asking me to explain what it means.
Even now, at 23 years of age, if that happens, he will come and tell me, and ask for the interpretation. I don’t know if you saw this, but I did mention the fact that I am intuitive.
Parents need to be aware. Many pain related problems start early in a child’s life and can follow them into adulthood.
Spiritual attack is actually a factor of pain for many people. This is a pain related issue that I will be discussing in length on this site, including the dreams themselves; so stay tuned.
What I never got to tell my mother in that moment of personal confession, is that this was the first, but not the last of my spiritual dreams. As I explained to her; it was because I had gone through this as a child, that I recognized the same thing occurring in my son at the exact same age.
Yes, parents. Pay attention. After all, don’t pastors constantly say that the enemy is after our children, to capture their minds during that crucial time of development? What is the median developmental age that the experts say is the time of imprinting on a child?
If you are not the spiritual guardian of your household; and if you have not secured your children from spiritual attack, this can happen to them and you will never know or understand that they are being attacked.